Finally!
After what seemed like 3 minutes, 2 minutes later the next series of carts arrived. An awkward nod of heads with the driver showed we’ve both had a wearisome day.
“I wonder what his life is like?” I thought.
sonder
And so, life goes on...
It has indeed been a long day, my legs are fatigued from the arduous works I’ve been engaged in. As I look around to find comfort, to find safety in an empty space. A sudden realisation, this seems to be a reoccurring event in my life. The need to rest. There is a difference between feeling tired and feeling exhausted I believe. Tiredness can often be solved by simply resting the body, exhaustion on the other hand requires the resting of ones whole being, mind, body and spirit. I believe exhaustion is what I have been feeling lately. A deep rest is needed, perhaps a couple days off?... perhaps... Pardon me... I digress....
Unlike my previous experience. This time the spaces were plenty. On time as per usual, indecision came knocking on the door of the mind's eye... "where should one sit?" This morning I simply took what was available, less options requires minimum decision making. To build discipline, give yourself less options.
After a brief moment, I chose the most obscured space, hidden from the rest, close enough to make an exit undetected.
After all, who wants to be seen? Right?
A little smirk found its way onto my face. It is ironic the ones that do not want to be seen, the low-key individuals, often try their best to move around undetected, thinking attention is constantly on them. When, on the contrary, no one really cares, everybody is living in their own reality where you might only exist for a millisecond. As harsh as it may sound. In fact, making an effort not to be seen may cause you to stand out even more. So, if you are one of those individuals, where your attention is constantly on what others may think or say... stop caring my friend, live, nobody cares.
As I evoked the necessary motor signal allowing my physical form to execute the task of approaching this long-awaited seat. I was in disarray, perplexed in fact, my chosen space has been occupied. Quickly scanning the rest, all I see is a series of eyes dotted across the once empty spaces. To my dismay, I was still standing on the platform looking in from the window. I took too long. Damn you indecision, you struck again. To stand is still an option. Something told me to wait for the next one.
Finally!
After what seemed like 3 minutes, 2 minutes later the next series of carts arrived. An awkward nod of heads with the driver showed we’ve both had a wearisome day.
“I wonder what his life is like?” I thought.
sonder
And so, life goes on...
This time determined to find my place of rest. Giving myself no time to think. I hustled my way into the cart before even looking around. To my surprise...
"Hello stranger, does this mean there will be a part 2 of nothing last forever?"
To be continued...
